Your eyes saw my substance, being yet unformed.
And in Your book they all were written,
The days fashioned for me,
When as yet there were none of them. – Psalm 139:16
As I read over Psalm 139, my mind began to wander and imagine God’s process in creating me. He must have had such a fun time creating me, I thought. If you’ve ever created anything you can probably relate. You take time to make sure every detail is perfect to your liking. You can’t wait to see the final product and reveal it to someone else.
God knew you before the foundation of the world. He saw your life from beginning to end and saw that it was good. He then spoke you into existence. You have the privilege of finding out what that life looks like. I believe that this life he foresaw is not only possible, it is probable. He wired you so specifically, being intentional with each one of your weaknesses and quirks, and wove each intricacy of your personal makeup into a beautiful story of redemption, adventure and wonder.
I began to ask myself, how could I see this life He imagined? I resolved to present myself daily as clay to the master potter. What can’t God do with a fully yielded vessel? I believed that as long as I kept my heart postured the right way, there is no way I can mess it up. It is not a statement of perfectionism, but one of trust in God’s leadership in my life. The only logical response to life with God had to be one of complete surrender.
The Heart of a King
The king’s heart is in the hand of the Lord,
Like the rivers of water;
He turns it wherever He wishes. – Prov 21:1
I love this proverb because it illustrates God’s leading in our lives beautifully. A king has unlimited resources and power at his disposal and can live as he pleases. He already has everything he can ever wish for. He can choose to live and rule in such a way that he uses all his resources and power to live comfortably, being more concerned with himself and living at the expense of others. It makes a powerful statement for a king to surrender his heart to God and trust His leading for his life. It takes true wisdom and humility.
Picturing a heart in the hands of the Lord is such a delicate, raw and vulnerable posture. A heart that is fully exposed, giving complete control and trust to the Lord is a beautiful illustration of yielded-ness. A surrendered heart has the potential of being disappointed and hurt, but it still relinquishes its power and right to protect itself, trusting more in the goodness and faithfulness of God.
Rivers do not follow straight lines and its paths are unpredictable. Likewise, the way that God leads our lives can seem unpredictable. It’s comforting to know that God directs our lives and turns it however, whenever, and wherever He wishes. Sometimes it doesn’t make sense and difficult seasons seem to be longer than expected. But He knows what He is doing even though we might not know the direction, purpose or timing of things.
At the end of the day, it is all about our heart posture. I believe heart posture is the compass to our destinies. We will get to where we need to get to if our heart posture is aligned correctly. After all, God is the good shepherd, not a bad shepherd; He knows how to lead his sheep. Even if you wander astray, He will leave the ninety-nine just for you!
One of my heroes in the faith, Reinhard Bonnke, was able to achieve something that no one has done before. There was no career path to help guide him to what God had planned for his life. I could be wrong, but I don’t believe Reinhard was even able to dream he would one day see over 1 million people saved in one night. As of today, his ministry CFAN has seen over 75 million documented people saved through his evangelistic crusades, seeing at times over a million people saved in just one night! While reading his autobiography, Living a Life of Fire, I realized one thing that stood out about Reinhard Bonnke was his uncompromising ‘yes’ and utmost value to follow God’s voice. As a young boy, Reinhard heard from God he would become a missionary to Africa. At the time, his father who was a pastor, told him he would never become a missionary and that Reinhard’s older brother was called into ministry, not Reinhard. But Reinhard held onto God’s word and kept pursuing what he knew was true to his heart.
Likewise, when I think about Heidi Baker, another hero of mine, there was no career path for what she is doing today and no one who has done what she is doing today. Today, she is impacting the whole nation of Mozambique, preaching the gospel to unreached groups, planting thousands of churches at unprecedented rates and much more!
Then I got to thinking about my life. I don’t believe that Reinhard Bonnke and Heidi Baker are the only 1% super Christians reserved by God to be used in amazing and impossible ways. There is no difference between [insert your favorite hero in the faith here] and you. God wants to use YOU in a way the world has never seen before!
In a documentary about Heidi Baker’s life, Bill Johnson said something that really hit my heart. He said that the difference between the Bakers and other Christians is that Christians give their lives to God once, but the Bakers give their lives to Jesus every single day.
Principles or Relationship?
What is possible in your life fully surrendered to God and valuing His voice above all else? Would it look any different from living the typical course the world has predetermined and living the American dream? Does it have to look like graduating high school at 18, going to college, getting a job, getting married and having kids before a certain age and living a good and comfortable life. There is nothing wrong with what I just described. But what if there is more? What if there is an unbeaten path that is waiting for you and a dream that God has had for you that is bigger than you can think or imagine? What if it is bigger than even your own dreams for your life? Would you try and find out what that life looks like?
Personally, I don’t want to just learn a bunch of good Christian principles to apply in my life to live a good, comfortable Christian life that doesn’t require risk, trust and surrender to God. Neither am I hoping for a hard and difficult life! But, I don’t believe God set me free from the rat race of the world, only to stick me under another set of rules that just look holier. The sobering reality is that living by principles alone doesn’t require relationship with God. Now if I end up with a five-bedroom house, white picket fence, white collar job and that is where God led me, then I would be absolutely happy with that. I just want to know I lived in good conscience that I didn’t compromise and settle for less. I don’t want to settle merely for what I can get from God to suit my needs. Will you settle for principles for a better life or will you cling onto relationship with God even through times of disappointment, hardship and uncertainty?
My biggest dream and life’s pursuit is to find the full possibility of my life completely yielded and surrendered to God. I desire to live with the utmost value for His voice, trusting that if he yanked me out of the world, then He knows how to train and lead me in His kingdom. I believe the life God dreamed for me is more beautiful than I could ever imagine.
Your days were fashioned for you. Will you embrace all that God had fashioned for you?
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